Mixed Emotions~!

Well, first of.. I am feeling a few emotions now.. Seriously..

First emotion, is Happy.. happy that I got a result just good enough for my scholarship..
Happy that the Lord has been blessing me so much, I myself can't list all the blessings..
Happy that I have in the end, still on the run for my study goals.. (1st class babe..)

Second emotion, sad.. sad for being so far from God these few weeks.. man.. working really takes all energy away..

sad for not being able to be happy.. if you can digest this..

Thirdly, I'm confused.. why? well, I really don't know whether jealousy means I have fallen for someone.. as I normally won't get jealous at all, and jealousy is not a good thing... but I must admit.. at times, I am very jealous...

Well, mixed emotions...

PS: One of the emotions is added so that it will spice up this posts...

PSS: Perhaps I am telling a lie when i say one of the emotions is added to spice it up.. perhaps I'm feeling all of it..

PSSS: Perhaps I'm just trying to confuse u with my PSS post? I do add one to confuse you..

PSSSS: Imagine urself...

Working...

I've been busy working and bringing friends out these few days that I haven't have the energy to blog.. seriously.. I've been reaching home, exhausted and fantasizing about my sleep... I must say, I never expected this in the first place..

Due to my constant tiresome life, I never expected that I couldn't handle worklife.. but that all changed.. now..

Am gonna blog less, as I have work to do as well, from time to time, I'll still try to update my blog.. with more lame posts..

There.. I forgot what I wanted to blog in the first place.. dang..

Till I remember, ciao...

PS: I'm not gonna post a picture of me in uniform due to fella's saying that I look like ultraman's sidekick...

First Week

Alright, the first day of work was kind of a very negative posts... (due only to my homesickness)..

First week of job is gone, and I did enjoy my work there, and am loving the place week after week. Everything is great as I have found a different alternative route to the workplace which is cheaper and faster.

Well, just can say one thing. Everything is planned by God and is best for me... I do thank God now that I'm starting to see that everything is better than other companies.. The job is not too tough, yet is relevant in my field. I get to do stuff that I don't do in uni that is very useful for working life. I get to enjoy time at home as I have figured out a better route...

Imagine this, I found that route in the first place.. and never stayed at my friend's place.. I would have never experienced what my dad went through, and will not appreciate him more..

So I thank God for his plans and purposes..

Can't wait for week 2~!

PS: For the first time ever, I went to be a "hing tai" (brother) for a groom.. It's a rather chinese tradition where the groom side have to fulfill several wishes in order to get the bride into the car to go to church for wedding. Well, I enjoyed everything of it though we ate some nasty stuff.. But it was fun. I actually felt more lovey dovey as the wedding proceeded... Thanks for this chance..

Another foot note, CONGRATS CHAN HON CHUNG AND ANNIE SOO~!!! or should i call ANNIE CHAN~!!! ... Chung.. we finally are relatives.. muahhahaa

First Day of Work

I have spent 8 hours in BlueScope Steel...

Well, I was late 30 minutes, yet was not scolded but still being accepted. Well, I was introduced to everyone. Well, I got my uniform. Well, I didn't do much work today. Well, lots of people whom I asked for help has helped. Well, the "boss", Mr Bruno, is friendly. Well, I had friends that I already know working with me as interns. Well, we had our own personal room.. ( Cause, there's no more space for us, thus they stuffed us into a meeting room and made it the "internship" room...). Well, we had vouchers for lunch at the cafeteria (no need pay as much for lunch!!). Well, we had a very willing to help senior who explained almost everything to us.. Well, I had the chance to overnight at a friend's place, with dinner provided. Well, everything was good..

But.. I still feel sad.. Perhaps the homesickness is kicking in from time to time.. Being a high I person, I do feel emotional waves striking me from time to time. At times at the office, I feel so sad. Not cause there's too much thing to do, but just sad. If you ask me whether I'm ok to sit in the office for 8 to 10 hours straight, I'm all good, as my studies already have required me to do so at times. Still i feel homesicky... If you ask me whether moving out to stay alone in Sunway is a problem, I won't feel so. But staying at Klang, working at Kapar, this challenge is a bit too much for me..

Perhaps the Lord wants me to be out of my comfort zone, to train me for a higher cause. I don't know. I just somehow feel weak and sad. But I really have to thank God, cause, according to the first paragraph, the company I'm doing internship in is seriously very hard to find. It is so good that most people will die wanting it. Perhaps I should really live out of my comfort zone..

PS: Work sucks~! Study rocks~! I have finally been forced to agree to that term. Anyway, I really wanna thank my Father (Mr Lee) as he has been doing so for the past 10 months. Working in Melaka and only coming back on weekends, I really have finally understood the kind of sacrifice my dad did in order to find income to feed me.. Really tough and at times depressing..
Love ya dad..

Progressing...

Well, I'm progressing to another stage of my life, working life.. sort of.. I'll start my internship tomorrow at a place that is far away with no internet connection.. (I'm staying at my friend's place who doesn't have internet). I'll occasionally go back on the weekdays and always on the weekends.. but that means I won't read and write as much. Internship ends February.

I do hope these 3 months will pass quickly and meaningfully.

All prayers are needed..

I've recently read an essay I composed for an English test in Alevels.. boy.. I can't believe I wrote that based on my current level of literacy.. I will post the essay sometime soon, for comments to come in.. till then, there's nothing much, not much lame posts...

PS: I'm not out of idea, it's just the nervousness that is making my mind blank.. oh yeah, NBA restarted a few weeks already..

New Addition!!

As an added incentive to loyal viewers, this Leisure Lounge will expand its operation!!

I present to you, the newest program featured by this lounge, Victor's Tag It Or Not!

A new link has been added at the right hand column to ease the visitation of that program itself.

From this day onwards, all tags will be done at that site and everytime a tag is done, a footnote will be added here. Only for those curious and "darn" free people, do visit that site..

Another addition is that we are accepting membership to this lounge. Do look for this

and click "follow" if you want to be a member. No strings attached.. hehe

Again, I stress, I need committed moderators and members to start an English FCC Forum.. We can't just start with no people being moderators as well as no one posting.. and frankly speaking, I'm too tied up to do so.. So, please, anyone willing to offer their help, do leave a comment.

PS: Let's do our best for building fund!

FCC English Forum

Alright.. polls are closed.. before I talk more about this.. I would like to take this chance to talk more on.... BF... nope.. not boy friend.. not best friend.. it's BUILDING FUND~!!!

*this blog posts onwards are more applicable for FCC members.. actually, the entire blog posts is..*

Building Fund..

Why am I talking about it here? Cause.. I feel that I have to.. not entirely because the church needs money... not entirely because I'm a church leader, thus I'm carrying out my responsibility... but because.. I've got my personal sharing to make here...

Faith Christian Center.. for me.. is not just merely a church.. but a center where christians who have FAITH gather together... and faith needs to be tested from time to time.. and building fund.. is one great way to test our faith. I don't know about you who's reading this.. I'm a typical student with a rather tight and fix allowance.. only time I have extra money, is when I get my scholarship.. normally I would give a fix amount to building fund from my scholarship..

Last semester, I lost my scholarship.. and I was really prompted not to contribute towards building fund anymore.. but on one sunday, the Lord challenged me of an amount.. that is a huge chunk of my allowance.. I was reluctant at first, thinking I should give a smaller amount.. but the Lord reminds me of this.. "All things come from God, and of God's do we give Him.." Many times, the Lord tests.. and only faithful servant will be rewarded from the tests and tribulations.. Rarely is there a case where the Lord blesses first, before a step of faith is taken. The reason is simple. Hebrews 11:1 says " Now faith is being sure of what we hope for, and certain of what we do not see".

Thus, this time around, I gave by faith.. not knowing how I would survive the month, not knowing, how I could get that one thing I really wanted.. (my birthday was around the corner).. In my own sane mind, I thought of skipping meals, and not getting anything for my ownself for birthday... but the Lord is always gracious..

First of all, my brother suddenly gave me money from time to time, without me even asking! I would come home discovering an amount of money on my table.. blessings from my brother, and God. Another thing is, I got a present for my birthday.. which is worth the amount I gave for building fund. And it did not come as it is, it came with accessories~! (if totalled up, the present itself exceeded the amount I gave!!)

I don't know if this sharing would encourage anyone of you reading out there.. but do remember... every contribution towards the building fund, is not for our own enjoyment.. but for the evangelistic ministry.. who knows who would be saved in FCC in the future? Perhaps, that one person who came to know Christ in church 20 years down the road will come up to you and say thank you to you, not for your money, not for your contribution, but for your act of faith..

PS: A great response has been obtained regarding the English FCC Forum.. but there's no use wanting it when no one is volunteering to moderate and manage it.. thus I need volunteers to help start it up as well as manage it for a long run.. before I can propose it to pastor..

And I was tagged...

Alright, I don't usually do this.. but since I'm bored.. I'm doing it.. for those who want to know me more, keep reading, for those who don't give a XXXX... skip this posts.. lolz..

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Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.


1. What do you want most for the time being??
Holidays just started, perhaps relaxation, more time hanging out with family and friends..

2. What is your most favourite thing to do?
most favourite means one only.. er.. erm.. this is hard as it is a close competition between a few, but I would say spending time with loved ones.. yay.. good answer.. haha


3. What is your 1 regret in life?
Wasting lots of my teenage years not knowing the true meaning of friendship.. especially coming to know God slow.. :(

4. Who inspires you?
People who has done something honorable.. there are a lot.. can't finish listing.. namely people who do not bow down to injustice..

5. Tell me something I dont know about your family background.
My family background.. This should be a surprising fact.. My parents actually never planned to have me... If I do recall correctly.. cause they already had 2 sons.. then out of boredom they say, why not have another.. let the baby be a girl.. that'll be fun.... in the end.. I am around.. haha..

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
Nope.. unless we reverse the time and go back to the barter system..

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
My relationships.. namely God and family and friends..

8. What do you feel like doing, right now?
Watch movie with friends... so many nice movies just released...

9. If you can get out of your current life circumstance, would you?
Yes, for a vacation with "someone" if that's the case..

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
First, Jason is a responsible person. He'll carry out whatever duties he has accepted with quality.. that is him.. Jason da Mason.. Secondly, he is considered one of the "sensitive" and "loyal" guys.. if you get me.. haha Pang de Mang.. Thirdly.. He is a great supporter.. If you don't believe me.. tell him you are injured, can't walk.. he can carry you.. no matter what your weight is.. hehe.. Ding the Ku.. haha.. (all da 3 nicknames for him.. that I just tot of.. hehe)

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
Well, she must first and foremost love God. understands me and the reasons why I am doing what I'm doing.. I tend to not talk so much.. so.. she must also be someone whom I am comfortable talking with.. very important woh... hehe

12. If you were given a choice, would you want to know what love is all about?
Well, of course.. and I do believe I did... to a certain extent..

13. What is your ambition?
I thought of being a police.. doctor.. etc etc.. never an engineer~!! Voila.. I'm studying engineering.. if you ask me now.. I would say.. can continue to walk faithfully in God..

14. Is anyone really perfect?
Yes~!! God~!!

15. If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick ?
Happy, I believe, if one is happy, he will be rich as well.. because.. he won't have to be sad or worried about cash.. (if he is happy, he wont have financial problem.. nah.. geng leh me.. tapau both selections in 1 selection.. hehe)

16. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
My inability to wake up.. (i sleep walk and close alarm clocks... =.=...)

17. Who is the person (people) that you can share all your problems with?
Well, currently, Sir Gypsy Pang.. and Lydia Jie..and.. sometimes.. random people who are online.... of course.. people I'm close with la...

18. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
Taking a trip to New Zealand.. with my family.. to celebrate Jason Pang's third offspring's "full moon"... hehe (if you don't get this.. go read his blog posts about this tag..)

19. What is the one thing you love about yourself?
My ability to accept information quickly.. that I believe is a gift given by God. As long as you clearly explain everything one time, I'm gonna get the point already.. no need for a second explanation...

20. What is your dream job?
Dream job ah.. Owner of McDonald's... not an outlet.. but the entire franchise..


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PS: I shall come back with more posts.. haha

Oh.. and I tag...
1. Jason Pang Teck Seng.. (We'll see when this tagging will end.. hahahaha...)
2. Titus Tang..
3. Rick Sim...
4. Adele Ong.
5. Jovina Ng..
6. Z-boz..
7. TimL!m
8. who else always blog.. hm.. oh oh.. Michael Lim.. hehe

I'm getting a girlfriend..

Jeez.. like I'm really gonna announce it..

Well, few weeks ago, I had no idea what I should do during the holidays.. thus I have been thoughtful enough to gather advices and views from all the readers.. and just to spice things up, added the "get a girlfriend" thingy..

Well, surprisingly, 14 said get a girlfriend... these 14 persons.. really don't know me well. I don't purposely get a girlfriend for the sake of friend's asking, or for the sake of keeping myself not so lonely... If you wanna know my concept, ask me in person.. Thus, I hereby announce that the option to get a girlfriend is void. Thus, the second option, improve guitar prevailed~!

And since I am longing to improve my guitar already, the option "memorize bible verses" will also be taken into consideration this holiday..

Sorry to disappoint the 14 fellas (I like number 14 cause Mitsui is number 14 in slamdunk.. hehe..) but I'm not getting a gf for the sake of pleasing anyone.. unless something really did happen during the holidays.. well... let's see what God has prepared this coming holidays.. haha

Another note, exams finished, back to smart car and industrial training.. =.=.. I miss my final fantasy games..

Blessing

I'm busy preparing for my thursday and friday papers.. sensors being one of it, and manufacturing the other. Both require numerous memorization.. and all along I thought sensor first, before manufacturing, thus I have resolved to study sensor only.. but thank God, a day before the paper, which is today.. my friend told me tomorrow's paper is manufacturing, then only sensors on friday...

so I am 20% prepared for sensor.. and now boosting for manufacturing.. haha..

thus, do prepare for my absence for 3 days before I blog again. haha.

my apologies.

and do pray for me..

*runs off to study like mad...*

PS: This is the 66th posts, and to add a note to it, there are 66 books in the bible..

Faith Christian Center

When I just came to FCC, I was like... finally.. a church without any Saints in it... haha..

Well, being David Lee's brother, there are certain expectations on me.. cause prior to my coming.. my brother kind of let some fella know of the possibility of my existance.. but i bet I did disappointe most of them.. as I'm not as good looking as my brother... haiz..

Neway, back to the topic.. When I just reached, I had one thing in mind. I want to join the worship team. Being the brother of one of the guitarist in church, people had high hopes on me.. But, The Lord had other plans. I ended up in the Usher team.. and I did learn a lot of things.. knowing me.. I'm arrogant.. and I am taught to humble myself through the usher team.. I also joined one of the best cell groups, Howard's cell.. or better known as Ken Damansara Cell Group..
Being in a group of working adults, I never felt hard adapting.. moreover, I enjoyed every cell meeting I had..

Not long after I served as gamemaster for Koinonia camp... really an eye opening experience as it was great.. For the first time I had to be the security at night as well, with Nicky Ding.. oh... those were good times.. Next, was asked to be MC, as well as Game master for Family Camp, and then side actor for a drama... being ask to lead the security team..and finally being a FS leader itself..

I can see myself grow rapidly when I'm in FCC. Through alpha, i am pondered to think out of the box, and to get to know more on christianity and intellectual way of thinking about stuffs.. I do grow a lot here.. I really thank God that I ended up in FCC.. as I get to know a lot of crucial friends in life, get to know what is love, relationships... and I also have learnt not to be so rebellious towards God.. haha..

In a nutshell, FCC is the place where I was tested, yet God's grace is always there to pull me through.. and I did learn a lot here.. However, learning is always a never ending process.. thus I'm still in FCC...

PS: I also get to experience lots of new stuffs... and this shall end my church marathon posts...